Ah yes...this word...it's jap...Maa Yi...i'm not so sure about the spelling nor am i sure about the meaning...As far as i know, this words means oh well...which describes my emotions now pretty well...I just found out...or rather, guessed...there's this girl i kinda like, you know..i think...i'm not sure of my emotions...she's pretty special...living overseas...we msg pretty often, ya know...earlier, i was checking her friendster profile...when i chanced upon this...this...revelation? turns out, she's been in contact with another guy...with friendster comments...but...far as i know, she's pretty popular...so...whether or not this means anything, i know not, but...what i'm sure is...this brings back the emotions...the dark emotions i was so prone to feeling when it was last year...due to HER... this...this emotion...i can't describe it...it's too...weird...i feel like laughing...in an evil, maniacal way...because...it's like...everything falls apart...i'm laughing at my own life...she was my pillar of hope...she made me believe in life again...when i was lost, i turned to her...now...now what? EHAHAHAHAHAHA ( oh man i'm tired of typing that. Insert Joker laugh here)
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