Ah, miss Kayne! Glad you could join me! I wanted to write this in the chatbox, but figured it would be a tad too long. And long-winded. So, i decided to write it here. Along with my gripes. kaka.

SO! Miss Kayne! You're wrong on a few points there. Firstly, there is no timetable as to when i update. I just update when i feel like it.

Secondly, and more importantly, about my...wishlist on the side of my blog, yes? You say that belonged. I? BELONGED? Please, do not make me laugh. It is not funny, miss kayne. I never did belong back in form 6. I was a stranger, even to the people in my own class. Try thinking back to then. Did I belong in any particular group? Was I seen hanging around any particular group? Maybe, in certain times during prefecting, yes (especially during prefect recess). But after that? Or during normal class? No. No,no,no. I did not belong anywhere, did I? No group would particularly accept me. Even when i DID manage to join a group, I would just sit there, unable to join in the conversation. Mainly because of one of two reasons :

1. I didn't understand the language. This only applies when ppl are talking in mandarin.

2. The more common reason. I had no idea what they were talking about. They would either be talking about this person, or when they went to this place, or about this event, all of which i had no idea of.

Think about me. A guy like me. Only good in talking bout manga and games. How do you suppose i will fit into any of the groups in school? all of which had no...use for me. As the chinese saying goes : "Tor lei yat kor mm tor, siu lei yat kor mm siu" (literal translation : "even if you're here, it won't be too many people, if you're not here, it won't be too little people". Meaning, your presence is...expendable, to say the least.) Even if I did, it would seem forceful, or i that i would nvr be accepted completely. So there, miss Kayne. So there.

I must applaud you though. I must say, you DID try to make me feel accepted, along with your group, that is miss Lim and miss Yee. Please, convey my thanks to them as well. How things look like right now, i probably won't be able to see or contact them anytime soon, save the handphone, so i'm counting on you to relay my message.

Now, I'm pretty tired. And it's getting late. Later.
10:16 AM



Hey there! Well, seems like NO ONE'S reading this, but so what, huh? Yeah, I'm still gonna write on this thing. So, I just finished watching Mr and Mrs Smith. Yeah, I know, i'm WAY outdated on this. But I didn't go and watch it in the cinemas, so i had to wait until it's shown on tv. And i don't have astro, mind you. And actually, I didn't really watch the whole thing. I just watched about half the show, coz the other channel was shoeing Death Note 2, which was good as well. But man, it was LONG! I mean, it was 2 and 1/2 hours! But oh well, it was a good film. Too bad they had to change the story though.

SO! My main story of the day. It actually came from mr and mrs smith. It's about this married couple whose marriage is failing, coz they have to keep secrets from each other. They're both assasins, u see...and from rival agencies to boot! But it was what in the end, that really hit me. They were both being hunted from their respective agencies, and the two agencies sort of worked together to kill them. And, while taking a breather from all the chaos, the two of them thought of some time in the past where it's about some boats and La Paz. They smiled while thinking about it, which means that it must have been some experience. But then mrs smith said, " But I would rather be here, with you". Or something like that. And that's saying something, coz where they are, they're about to go out and get shot at by a lot of people with guns. But they won, of course. And in the end, they saved their marriage. But it was what mrs smith said that really struck me.

Is love really THAT powerful? She would rather be there, with her husband, about to go out into a battlefied, than be at what must be a paradise or something. Huh...the power of love is always said as strong, incredibly powerful and all that. So it got me wondering.

And...yesterday, there was pasar malam. I was dragged along to it by my mom. I mean, I've lived there for so long and since i was small, i went every friday, until a few years ago, coz i got bored of the place. I mean, i've been there so darn many times. And it ain't like i had anything to buy. Anyway, we were walking, and we walked past the popiah store, and i saw the girl who was tending the popiah stall. My heart suddenly beat faster. Why? Coz the girl resembled HER. Yeah, HER. You know, the same one from so so long ago? Huh...Which got me wondering. (yeah, i always wonder) Why did i feel that way? Could it be...because there was no closure of sorts. I mean, our friendship just...degenerated. Until the point where there was no rescuing it. So...what could have triggered it? I wonder...
8:26 AM



Whee! I'm back!!! Wakakakaka!!! My dear readers, (if there are any) have you been missing my posts? Well, rejoice, for Jack is back. I must say, this name has really taken a shine to me. Well, since the end of STPM, I haven't been really doing much. I'm relaxing everyday, 24/7. Sure, things might get slow once in a while, but things as they are, are great. And i've finished Persona 4! Man, that has to be one of the best games of the PS2. The characters really grow on you. I'm missing a bit of the game even now. Now, I'm on Resident Evil 4. I never thought I'll be playing this game, but it is good, y'know. And it has great visuals to boot. And it really ain't THAT scary. At least you can SEE the enemies. And they're not zombies by the way. They're...ill-tempered mutated infected people....I have no idea what I'm talking about. When you play, you'll know.

Well! A new skin. Actually, this skin DOES reflectmy feelings. Now that school is over, I don't think i'll meet my friends again. I wonder...do they still remember me? Not that I had many friends in Form 6, that is. Form 6 was...pretty bad, i guess. You know, coz of all that not belonging stuff and mixed feelings and all...Well, I guess I'll hafta get used to this. So, anyway, on to the MAIN EVENT!!! dun dun dunnnn....

The main reason is...There's this girl, y'know...I, myself is not sure how i feel about her....Haven't seen her for a LONG while. Well, you still remember my previous post, right? From last year, no less. Yeah, it's the same girl. No, not HER, not the existence that has plagued me for over a year, starting from lower 6! It's another girl, one that has given me hope (insert hallelujah song here. Did I spell that right?) Well, that was...last year too. You see, she doesn't msg me nowadays...and I tried msg-ing her once, but she nvr replied. I don't wanna bother her too much, u know? I've bothered her so many times last year. She's...important to me, i guess...Well, no use thinking about all that now, right? I'll...see what i can see and do what i can do...
9:30 AM