Ara, this will be a little emo post...you see, earlier, on msn, i...encountered someone. The person who caused me so much pain. The person i hated for some time. HER. Yes, HER. When i think about her, 2 things pop into my mind. 1 : the (rather) good memories, and 2 : the events of July the 25th, 2007. Ah, yes...that day...but i will leave that for some other day. For now, I shall elaborate what happened earlier.

I was stunned. I met her once on msn about 2 weeks ago. I was shocked then too. Because u see, she's a rather...rare encounter. But at that time, i kept my cool. I reacted normally, and chatted normally. But after that, the memories came flooding back in. And it reminds me of that incident, and the...not so nice consequences. She...caused me to go down. Caused my fall. Sure, that might not be the only reason, but I dare say she was a rather...big factor.

So, i met her earlier (on msn, no less) but i didn't engage her. I only opened the chat window but nvr uttered a word. I was...keeping myself in check. I was...stabilizing myself. At that moment, i was torn between 2 emotions : 1. to just move on, treat her like a normal friend again, and 2. to hate her, hate her for causing my...condition of sorts.

and to add oil to the fire, i was listening to this song for these fews days, :



Here are the rap lyrics :

First day that we met there was something special
Something between us with so much potential
But something was nothing was all just a game
You played my brain with your cute little frame

To think that I thought there was something between us
Think that I thought there was love in between us
Now that I thought it was you in between us
Now that I thought it was you that deceived us

But no us, it was you then me
How the hell could I see what would happen to be
Were you actually just playin with me?
How the fuck could this be how you treated me?

You said these words and you did these things
And you wrapped me around like a fuckin string
And you pulled me along and you led me on
Until all I got left is the words to a song

Now I look in your eyes and I start to realize
All those fucking lies in between your lines
Not a single truth in a thing you said
But I don't give a shit now cuz to me you're dead and it's..

*end of lyrics*

ok, that was to differentiate between the lyrics and my post. Haha. It is a good song, by the way. Nyoho. Well, I guess that's all for now. Oh yeah, and I really like the rap part lyrics...

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