Sigh...D-Day has come and passed...and in one fell swoop, it shattered me. Even now, I'm still reeling from the effects the results had on me. Even now, i feel like I failed...Although I didn't get an F for any of my subjects (thanks God) but still...I mean...2B 2C la weh...i was hoping for at least 1A...right now, i feel as if i let everyone down...like i let myself down....

At first, I felt really down...then with my friends around, i started to felt better. But i was still kinda alone in the school. Well, at most we just said the usual stuff, how were your hols, and later how was your results...we only talked about those stuff...who am i kidding huh? who really gives a damn bout me (those that were in school, that is)

Well, after that, went to eat with some of my friends...yeah, i was still cheerful at that time...but, when i got home, it was as if reality set in. I couldn't exactly face my parents...i was...in a state of shock, so to say...I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to be alone. I sat on the sofa idly for about half an hour...i didn't even look at the TV. I just sat there, and covered my face with my palm.

But soon after that, i at least regained enough spirit to open my computer and surf the net. And i felt better. And for the rest of the day, I just surfed the net and played games...I didn't want to be bothered by anything.

And so we come to today. The post-apocalyptic status was here. The more i thought about it, the more i felt like a failure. But that was just the start of it. As soon as I went on MSN, a person's personal message pierced me like a sword. It read : I worked my ass of for the papers. And his nick was : (insert name here) says results were sweet! And the results he got was 1A and 3B or something. Now, i'm not commenting on his results or anything, just his nick and personal msg. Was he implying that the others did not work their asses of? Was he implying that he worked harder than everyone else? Was he implying that other people did not work hard?

Why is it that people automatically think that other people didn't work hard if they didn't get good results? Why is it that people judge another person's effort by their results? Why? And so i am pretty pissed off these two days...
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