Hey there dear reader(s)? First off, sorry if my previous posts were emo-ish, and/or dark. If I made any one of you worry (which I highly doubt), I apologize. My mind wasn't exactly wired on right. Well, after some re-wiring, it's all better now!

I've been doing some thinking. Yes, I'm still hooked to that song with a long title. Yes, it's a rather sad song. Yes, it's a love song (somewhat). The lyrics may not match my situation 100%, but that's not why I listen to it. This song...has something special to it. I could almost feel the emotions that run through its lyrics. Strong emotions. And ain't song and music mostly about channeling emotions, or your soul, or whatnot? So I guess the song's doing its job. Heh.

Baack to the main point. So. I've been rather emo the past few days. For reasons that I shall not state here. Wahahahhaaha. Sometimes, you're in the middle of light, and you get dragged into the darkness. And I was THIS close to having a relapse into my darkness days, where all I do is sit in a corner, emo, and ponder whether or not life is worth it. But, sometimes, you find light within the darkness. Okay, so I didn't sit in a corner. I sat on a chair. There, happy? Why you so concerned with the details anyway? lol.

But still, I pondered about that question a lot. And I mean a lot. The result? I couldn't come up with an answer. No matter how hard I thought about it, until almost all of my thought processes were consumed by that question, I couldn't answer it. And I doubt anyone can. On second thought, scratch that. Everyone have their own answers, I guess. Which brings me to my next point...

Life isn't to be thought about, it's to be LIVED. What's the use of sitting there thinking? Nothing's gonna happen like that. Ever. You sit there thinking and thinking and thinking, when you could be doing something about it. (Damn, I sound like I'm lecturing myself)

Now, about the purpose, or meaning of life. This question? People have been asking it for ages. But no one's been able to answer it. Because no matter who you ask, other people ain't gonna be able to answer that question for you. Because it's YOUR life, not theirs. The way I see things, as you live life, you eventually find purpose, or meaning to your existence. To some, it may be to protect their loved one. To others, it may be to take care of their family. Some's purpose might even be to some bigwig and make some breakthrough, I don't know.

Point is, life...you won't find anything about it if all you do is sit around and mope. (Damn, now it REALLY sounds like i'm lecturing myself. Coz that's all i did for quite some time. hohoho) So go out and live it!

Well, that's all for now. This is Jack, signing out.
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Heh...Never thought...You'll come to find me again...But I can't say I'm surprised...I was kinda expecting you...darkness...

Seems we just can't get enough of each other, huh? Can't say that I missed you, though...Your effects were too strong...I used to be consumed by you...But then I regained strength, and overcame you...But now, now you've come back to find me...

I guess once someone's been tainted by darkness, the taint'll stick, huh? But then again, who hasn't faced darkness before? It's just that some are luckier...they have a source of light to guide them through...not all are that lucky though
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